1. Pay off more than I spend on my Visa. (wasn't really possible this month because it still had Christmas stuff on it)
2. Only buy the necessities: groceries, cleaning products, things I need for the house. (no buying clothes or anything I WANT at least until this summer)
3. Make a new recipe at least every 2 weeks and put the pics on here...coming soon.
4. Only upload pics from my camera at the end of every month to take up less files on Picasa.
5. Start exercising on my new Wii Fit Plus on all my days off.
6. Start wearing a pedometer on my days off and when it gets warm enough to walk in the park again...only done this once so far, because it decided to reset itself and said I only took 37 steps...so I'm mad at the pedometer right now.
7. Look for a house to buy in this area and hopefully move out in June sometime.
8. Start some jigsaw puzzles and post the pics on here...bought 2 so far...hopefully I can figure out how to glue them together and frame them.
9. Avoid men as much as possible especially one in particular.
10. If by chance I meet a guy with said person's name...run as fast as possible in the opposite direction.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
Quotes Vol. 16
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." ~ Mark Twain
"Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time she does something that tells you she's no good, you ignore it. And ever time she comes through and surprises you, she wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she's not for you." ~ The Holiday
"Sex makes everything more complicated. Even not having it because the not having it makes it complicated." ~ The Holiday
"She seems so cool, so focused, so quiet, yet her eyes remain fixed on the horizon. You think you know all there is to know about her immediately upon meeting her, but everything you think you know is wrong. Passion flows through her like a river of blood. She only looked away for a moment, and the mask slipped, and you fell. All your tomorrows start here." ~ Neil Gaiman
"Sometimes I dream that I have worms in my scrotum." ~ BJ
"Everything's great until you're 11 or 12 and BAM you've got pubic hair and the party's over." ~ BJ
"I would miss you even if I never got the chance to meet you."
"Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated." ~ Lamartine
"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected." ~ The Notebook
"To die and part is a less evil, but to part and live, there, there is the torment." ~ George Lansdowne
"A goodbye isn't painful unless you're never going to say hello again."
"Missing you could turn from pain to pleasure, if I knew you were missing me too."
"Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me...the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you."
"One man I can never meet. Him, I would like to give my whole heart to." ~ The Lake House
"Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about."
"Knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying." Grey's Anatomy
"I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd say it had a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure. Fear of pain. Fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong. What if you make a mistake you can't undo. Whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true. That by the time the pain of not doing the thing gets worse than the fear of doing it." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"When I met you, I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done! You left me. I'm all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"The things that I remember the best--those are the things I wasn't supposed to do and I did them anyway. The thing is: life is too damn short to be following these rules." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"You're letting her think you're emotionally available. You're letting her think she has a chance. And there is nothing worse in the world than thinking you have a chance when you really don't." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time she does something that tells you she's no good, you ignore it. And ever time she comes through and surprises you, she wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she's not for you." ~ The Holiday
"Sex makes everything more complicated. Even not having it because the not having it makes it complicated." ~ The Holiday
"She seems so cool, so focused, so quiet, yet her eyes remain fixed on the horizon. You think you know all there is to know about her immediately upon meeting her, but everything you think you know is wrong. Passion flows through her like a river of blood. She only looked away for a moment, and the mask slipped, and you fell. All your tomorrows start here." ~ Neil Gaiman
"Sometimes I dream that I have worms in my scrotum." ~ BJ
"Everything's great until you're 11 or 12 and BAM you've got pubic hair and the party's over." ~ BJ
"I would miss you even if I never got the chance to meet you."
"Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated." ~ Lamartine
"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected." ~ The Notebook
"To die and part is a less evil, but to part and live, there, there is the torment." ~ George Lansdowne
"A goodbye isn't painful unless you're never going to say hello again."
"Missing you could turn from pain to pleasure, if I knew you were missing me too."
"Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me...the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you."
"One man I can never meet. Him, I would like to give my whole heart to." ~ The Lake House
"Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about."
"Knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying." Grey's Anatomy
"I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd say it had a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure. Fear of pain. Fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong. What if you make a mistake you can't undo. Whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true. That by the time the pain of not doing the thing gets worse than the fear of doing it." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"When I met you, I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done! You left me. I'm all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"The things that I remember the best--those are the things I wasn't supposed to do and I did them anyway. The thing is: life is too damn short to be following these rules." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"You're letting her think you're emotionally available. You're letting her think she has a chance. And there is nothing worse in the world than thinking you have a chance when you really don't." ~ Grey's Anatomy
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Quotes Vol. 15
"Juliet was an idiot. For starters she falls for the one guy she knows she can't have. Then she blames fate for her own bad decision. When fate comes into play, choice sometimes goes out the window. Love like life is about making choices. And fate has nothing to do with it. Everything it's so romantic. Romeo & Juliet. Tru love. How sad. If Juliet was stupid enough to fall for the enemy, drink a bottle of poison and go to sleep in a mausoleum...she deserved whatever she got. Maybe Romeo & Juliet were fated to be together but just for a while. And then their time passed. If they could've known that beforehand maybe it would've all been okay. Even now I believe for the most part love is about choices. It's about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending...most of the intentions, fate wins anyway." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"I feel like one of those people who's so freaking miserable they can't be around normal people. Like I'll infect the happy people." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"At the end of the day all we really have is ourselves. And nothing in this world can make you feel more alone than that." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"If you know what you want, then you end up with a lot that you don't."
"Do you know I can't remember the last time we kissed. Cause you never think the last time is the last time. You think there'll be more. You think you have forever but you don't." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Okay so sometimes even the best of us make rash decisions. Bad decisions. Decisions we pretty much know we're gonna regret the moment, the minute, especially the morning after. I mean maybe not regret, regret because at least you know we put ourselves out there. But still...something inside us decides to do a crazy thing. A thing we know that'll probably turn around and bite us in the ass. Yet, we do it anyway." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Is there a reason why a broken dream can never fly? Is there a reason you believe and then you close your eyes? Give me a reason why you hide away so much inside. If there's a reson, I don't know why."
"We're supposed to forget about the past that brought us here, ignore the future complications that might arise and go for the quick fix." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"But the world is full of unexpected twists and turns. And just when you've gotten the lay of the land, the ground underneath you, shifts. And knocks you off your feet." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"We're adults. When did that happen? And how do we make it stop?" ~ Grey's Anatomy
"I've heard that it's possible to grow up--I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope, against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"I kissed you , with tongue, and I plan to do it again and again--get used to it. End of discussion." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Occasionally I'm callous and strange." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"It's a sham with yams, it's a yam sham." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"Actually I feel quite well, except for the rage." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"You're like coming up for fresh air. It's like I was drowning and you saved me." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"People--they pray for the future, mourn over the past and hate the present." ~ The Hermit and The Harlot
"Let's play a game of whose life sucks worse...I'll win, I always win." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Smile. Sometimes it makes people think you are insane."
"Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option."
"It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends...you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new, and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade." ~ The Holiday
"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said 'Journeys end in lovers meeting'. What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said 'love is blind'. Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. It's called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space. Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years. The absolute worst years of my life. The worst Christmas', the worst birthdays, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and Valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh God, just the sight of him! Heart pounding, throat thickening, absolutely can't swallow. All the usual symptoms." ~ The Holiday
"I feel like one of those people who's so freaking miserable they can't be around normal people. Like I'll infect the happy people." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"At the end of the day all we really have is ourselves. And nothing in this world can make you feel more alone than that." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"If you know what you want, then you end up with a lot that you don't."
"Do you know I can't remember the last time we kissed. Cause you never think the last time is the last time. You think there'll be more. You think you have forever but you don't." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Okay so sometimes even the best of us make rash decisions. Bad decisions. Decisions we pretty much know we're gonna regret the moment, the minute, especially the morning after. I mean maybe not regret, regret because at least you know we put ourselves out there. But still...something inside us decides to do a crazy thing. A thing we know that'll probably turn around and bite us in the ass. Yet, we do it anyway." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Is there a reason why a broken dream can never fly? Is there a reason you believe and then you close your eyes? Give me a reason why you hide away so much inside. If there's a reson, I don't know why."
"We're supposed to forget about the past that brought us here, ignore the future complications that might arise and go for the quick fix." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"But the world is full of unexpected twists and turns. And just when you've gotten the lay of the land, the ground underneath you, shifts. And knocks you off your feet." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"We're adults. When did that happen? And how do we make it stop?" ~ Grey's Anatomy
"I've heard that it's possible to grow up--I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope, against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"I kissed you , with tongue, and I plan to do it again and again--get used to it. End of discussion." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Occasionally I'm callous and strange." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"It's a sham with yams, it's a yam sham." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"Actually I feel quite well, except for the rage." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"You're like coming up for fresh air. It's like I was drowning and you saved me." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"People--they pray for the future, mourn over the past and hate the present." ~ The Hermit and The Harlot
"Let's play a game of whose life sucks worse...I'll win, I always win." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Smile. Sometimes it makes people think you are insane."
"Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option."
"It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends...you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new, and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade." ~ The Holiday
"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said 'Journeys end in lovers meeting'. What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said 'love is blind'. Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. It's called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space. Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years. The absolute worst years of my life. The worst Christmas', the worst birthdays, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and Valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh God, just the sight of him! Heart pounding, throat thickening, absolutely can't swallow. All the usual symptoms." ~ The Holiday
Friday, January 1, 2010
Quotes Vol. 14
"I wanted you to fight for me. I wanted you to say that there was no one else you could ever be with and that you'd rather be alone than without me."
"I knew I loved you when I realized that there was no one else I would rather laugh, cry and make memories with." ~ S. Zubrinic
"I think after so much of hurting...so much of the drama, you get yourself to a point where you just become numb. Yeah, you feel a little pain when you're let down, but after that shockwave, you just dwindle away into oblivion and it's like you just don't feel anything...the feeling of the pain leaves you, but the heartache is still there...thoughts keep replaying in your head...moments...words...smiles...laughter...the one thing I've learned from all of this though is, it's a give and take situation...it's a trade off...you put your heart out for the other person to hold on to...and in return you expect them not to break it...and as for true love...you just know...it's not about how many hours you spend with them...or the kisses...or the gifts...not about who loves who more...it's about what you would give up just to be with that person...what you would do to be able to call them the love of your life. You learn to compromise with true love...you learn how to take responsibility for your actions...you learn to be compassionate...to be selfless...and it's within learning from true love that we find ourselves...we find out what we're made of. We learn just how far our limits take us...how far we'll go for love."
"He's the one that comes along once in a lifetime. He's never held back with you. He's risked everything. And you're about to let him fly because you don't like ultimatums? If he's not the guy, if what he needs from you just isn't there, let him go. Break his heart, and make it a clean break. But if you really think you can love this guy... I'm talking scary, messy, no-emotions-barred need...if you're ready for that...then think about what you're about to lose." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"In my world there are people in chains and we can ride them like ponies." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"I feel like I'm worse than anyone. Honestly, I'm beneath them. My friends, my boyfriends. I feel like I'm not worthy of their love. Cause even though they love me, it doesn't mean anything cause their opinions don't matter. They don't know. They haven't been through what I've been through." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"You are only what you are when no one is looking."
"Don't regret anything that ever made you smile."
"I thought I was going to faint while barfing." ~ Angel
"I hate my wild imagination because it always makes life so disappointing."
"I just know that when you're around, whether I see you or not, I feel you. Inside. And it throws me." ~ Angel
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." ~ Dr. Seuss
"We only see what we wanna see and believe what we want to believe. And it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth...right in front of our faces. Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Then there's the kind of pain you can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out anything else. Makes the rest of the world fade away. Until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain. We anaesthetize it, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it. And for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it. Pain. You just have to ride it out. Hope it goes away on its own. Hope that the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions. No easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed. But sometimes the pain gets to you when you least expect it. It's way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain. You just have to fight through because the truth is you can't outrun it. And life always makes more." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"My point is this...whoever said what you don't know can't hurt you was a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know not knowing is the worst feeling in the world. But as human beings, sometimes it's better to stay in the dark. Because in the dark there may be fear...but there's also hope." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking; the harder it becomes to know what to say or how to ask for what we really need. At the end of the day there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear. And some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say. They're what you do. Some things you say because there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often...but every now and then...some things simply speak for themselves." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"For a kiss to be really good you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head. So that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot, so deep you never wanna come up for air." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"I knew I loved you when I realized that there was no one else I would rather laugh, cry and make memories with." ~ S. Zubrinic
"I think after so much of hurting...so much of the drama, you get yourself to a point where you just become numb. Yeah, you feel a little pain when you're let down, but after that shockwave, you just dwindle away into oblivion and it's like you just don't feel anything...the feeling of the pain leaves you, but the heartache is still there...thoughts keep replaying in your head...moments...words...smiles...laughter...the one thing I've learned from all of this though is, it's a give and take situation...it's a trade off...you put your heart out for the other person to hold on to...and in return you expect them not to break it...and as for true love...you just know...it's not about how many hours you spend with them...or the kisses...or the gifts...not about who loves who more...it's about what you would give up just to be with that person...what you would do to be able to call them the love of your life. You learn to compromise with true love...you learn how to take responsibility for your actions...you learn to be compassionate...to be selfless...and it's within learning from true love that we find ourselves...we find out what we're made of. We learn just how far our limits take us...how far we'll go for love."
"He's the one that comes along once in a lifetime. He's never held back with you. He's risked everything. And you're about to let him fly because you don't like ultimatums? If he's not the guy, if what he needs from you just isn't there, let him go. Break his heart, and make it a clean break. But if you really think you can love this guy... I'm talking scary, messy, no-emotions-barred need...if you're ready for that...then think about what you're about to lose." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"In my world there are people in chains and we can ride them like ponies." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"I feel like I'm worse than anyone. Honestly, I'm beneath them. My friends, my boyfriends. I feel like I'm not worthy of their love. Cause even though they love me, it doesn't mean anything cause their opinions don't matter. They don't know. They haven't been through what I've been through." ~ Buffy the Vampire Slayer
"You are only what you are when no one is looking."
"Don't regret anything that ever made you smile."
"I thought I was going to faint while barfing." ~ Angel
"I hate my wild imagination because it always makes life so disappointing."
"I just know that when you're around, whether I see you or not, I feel you. Inside. And it throws me." ~ Angel
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." ~ Dr. Seuss
"We only see what we wanna see and believe what we want to believe. And it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth...right in front of our faces. Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Then there's the kind of pain you can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out anything else. Makes the rest of the world fade away. Until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain. We anaesthetize it, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it. And for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it. Pain. You just have to ride it out. Hope it goes away on its own. Hope that the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions. No easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed. But sometimes the pain gets to you when you least expect it. It's way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain. You just have to fight through because the truth is you can't outrun it. And life always makes more." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"My point is this...whoever said what you don't know can't hurt you was a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know not knowing is the worst feeling in the world. But as human beings, sometimes it's better to stay in the dark. Because in the dark there may be fear...but there's also hope." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking; the harder it becomes to know what to say or how to ask for what we really need. At the end of the day there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear. And some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say. They're what you do. Some things you say because there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often...but every now and then...some things simply speak for themselves." ~ Grey's Anatomy
"For a kiss to be really good you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head. So that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot, so deep you never wanna come up for air." ~ Grey's Anatomy
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